The Opposite Invite

In life, girls aren’t just the only people you are friends with. You have some friends that are boys. This way both girls and boys (just as friends) can come over to your house and hang out with you. You can invite them over by texting or calling. They are still in your life, they are just deleted on Facebook for some reason from my last blog about cyber bullying. My friends discussed that no matter if they are males or females you are friends with, they still can be invited over to my house.

I Want More Friends...

Everyone in this world…not perfect.  Some people say or think that they are perfect, but they’re really not.  Mean girls say they’re perfect, but they’re mean…not perfect.  This reminds me of a Hannah Montana song called “Nobody’s Perfect”.  I listened to that song when I was like 9 or 10, but the message is still good today.  My friends are not mean.  I don’t choose mean people as my friends.  Sometimes it’s hard to understand how people can be mean only sometimes.  If you’ve read my blog before, you know that I was having a little problem on Facebook.  I had almost 450 friends.  Everyone in my school has like 500 or more, and so I didn’t think that it was a problem.   My mom thought it was a problem after I had some issues with cyber-bulling.  So, I had to delete a whole bunch of my friends on Facebook.  It made me feel upset, so I discussed this with a friend.  I said, “Just because there’s a little problem doesn’t mean that you have to delete nice people on Facebook.”  He said, “That’s true. “  I talked with another friend of mine and she also agreed with me.  I know my mom is trying to protect me and do what is best for me, but it feels so wrong in so many ways.  A lot of people ask, “Why did you delete me on Facebook?”  I don’t want anyone to say that or to feel upset.  I don’t want them to think that I’m mean.  I’m a nice person!  Nice people don’t delete other people.  My older friend says that deleting someone on Facebook does not make you mean.  She says that your actions and behavior around your friends will show them that you care.  It doesn’t matter if they are deleted or not, they will know that I love and care about my friends by my actions. 

A lot of people in my school are so nice and I really want to be friends with them on Facebook.  I’m just not allowed right now, but I hope I get to be.  I feel like this is very hard for me, but also hard for my mom.  I understand that my mom is trying to protect me.  She does not want me to be cyber bullied.

I am worried that I will be the only one with 100 friends/family.  Everyone has like 500 or more.  Some people might even have 1000 or more.  I would like to have unlimited friends, just like everyone else.  I like to be different with my look, like my hair or makeup.  Those are things that can make me unique.  I’m different because I have autism.  I’m different because I spend a lot of time thinking instead of hanging out.  What I realized is that I like being different when it comes to looks or personality.  I want to be like everyone else when it comes to social things.  This is sometimes hard for me to explain to my mom and other people.   I wish there was a way for both me and my mom to be happy about Facebook.  I care a lot about what other people think, even though it’s not a good thing to worry about.   I know my mom loves me, and I love her very much.  I just wish there was a way to compromise on Facebook so both my mom and I are happy.

My friend Chelsea had an idea about adding friends with me that SHE knows.  What a great idea!  I would like to have more friends.

Pumped Up Kicks

Today I received my cheer shoes!  They are Nike brand and they look fabulous.  They are white with patent leather details that make the shoe really pop.  The insole has cheerleaders on it, which I like!  I got my competition schedule, and I’ll get my uniform next month.  I am most excited to perform in Dallas, because I’ve been there before and it is SO nice.  Dallas has nice hotels and it will feel like I’m performing in front of the whole country.  The update on school is that I got back some grades.  I’m doing well, but Law class is still incredibly boring because all the teacher teaches is LAW.  I know it’s a law class, but I would rather learn about what is illegal instead.  That would really help people to understand laws and why you should obey them. 

Back to cheerleading…My first competition starts at the end of fall at a charter school. I’m expecting the team to win the trophy. I wanted to be on a more skilled team like the Juniors or the Seniors.  Right now I’m on the spirit squad, which is a team for children and teens with special needs. I feel a little proud to be on this team because this is my first year cheering. It also feels confusing because I may or may not be able to tumble like the other team.  So, the confusing part is that I would like to be on a different team, but because of my tumbling, I realize that this team is the right one for me…even if I don’t always want to be on it.  In order to join the Juniors or Seniors, I have to take a year or two with the Spirit team and then be able to do intermediate tumbling skills like back handsprings or stunting skills.  Some of the girls on Spirit do back handsprings.  The hardest part for me, with the back handspring is the jumping part.  I can complete the back handspring when someone spots me, but I need more power to do it by myself.  I can do a front handspring by going from a handstand to a bridge, but I am still learning how to do a back handspring.  I can do cartwheels, splits, and jumps.  I don’t jump too high, but I can use a trampoline to practice.  I want to cheer at Stoneman Douglas High School next year.  My friend and I just watched a few routines by the squads that won the National Championship for high school cheerleading.  They are insane!  I keep wondering how they get so good.  They must practice all the time.  What kind of squad would you like to be on? A squad with a lot of pressure or one where you just cheer for fun?  I would want to cheer for fun.  So, I guess I shouldn’t get upset about not having my back handspring because I am having so much fun with Cheer Florida.  Fun is the best reason for cheering, and so I guess I will be happy with the team that doesn’t have a lot of pressure.  Today, I designed my own cheer uniform.  It has a straight skirt, exposed torso, colors of red, white, and blue for Cheer Florida, and a long sleeved top.   

New Schedule, New Feeling

Now that I have been in school for a week, my schedule got changed.  This is a good thing because I’m not in class with anyone who hurts my feelings.  In my opinion, Law class is really boring…all you learn is law!  I was expecting to learn about things that are against the law, or how to follow laws.  Instead, we are learning about the definition of law, and other boring stuff.  I hope that I get to learn about more exciting things soon.  I am taking this Wheel elective.  So, I might get business or home economics next semester.  I think that would be better than law! 

My friend showed me a picture of a shirt that you could buy online.  It said, “I’m too pretty to do homework, so my brother does it for me.”  I would never wear this kind of shirt because it offends people and nobody likes it.  It sends the message that girls girls can’t do homework, or that they are not smart enough.  That’s not true at all!  I like shirts that are cute and funny but this one is offensive.  I was happy to learn that they don’t sell it anymore.

Today I am designing some workout wear for my Maluicious clothing line.  Athletes would like to wear my outfits because they might be tired of the same old workout clothes.  The shirt I designed combines a sports bra and undershirt together.  The combinations work together and are creative.  It is also good for covering the belly.  It’s not always good to expose the torso.  The back of the tank top has cross straps and says, “Pump It” on the back.  My pants are skin-tight or fitted and have a Maluicious waistband.  Underneath the waistband, I put pink, purple, and black stripes to add some color.  The leg of the pants is fitted so that no one trips when they are working out.  I chose to put “Work it Up” on the pants because “work” is in the word “work out”.  The pants match the “pump it up” shirt, so I wanted to make it “Work it up”.  I’ve done weights before, but they were a little heavy.  It was worth it, though.   

I am really excited about my new cheer shoes.  I almost got a uniform, but unfortunately, I missed practice last week.  I am SO excited to get the uniform because I can’t wait to find out what they look like.  I am hoping to get a red, white, and blue uniform.  We need uniforms for cheer competitions.  I’m looking forward to the cheer competitions because some are away from the town that I live in, and it will be fun to travel.  I also love to perform in front of people.  They tape the competitions and make videos, which is really exciting.  I’ve performed several times before, in plays and in dance club, so I can’t wait.  I might also join the color guard.  That starts in a few weeks.  I worry that I might not have time for both cheering and color guard, but I hope I will.