iChat, iCry

This week, on Monday, one girl who used to be nice became mean.  She called me “dumb”!  We were on iChat…she doesn’t go to my school.  I met her after a friend of mine at Cheerleading introduced us online.  She doesn’t know that I have autism…which shouldn’t matter.  She shouldn’t call anyone dumb.  I feel like the best way  or me to handle the situation is to ignore the mean people.  It bothers me because now I have one less friend on Facebook.  Everyone in my school has more Facebook Friends, but I have a limit.  I wish there was a way that I could stop the limit.  I don’t know when.  My friend told me to think about the difference between a friend and an acquaintance.  I think a friend is someone you talk to, who is loyal to you and does not say mean things about you.  I do have a lot of friends.   I am realizing that the number on Facebook is irrelevant.  But, it still upsets me that my number got lower.  I am trying to figure out why this bothers me.  I do feel jealous of my friends who have high numbers of friends on Facebook.  What I don’t understand is WHY I think it is a good thing to have a lot of friends on Facebook.   I did figure out that when I had a lot of friends, my Facebook page updated with THEIR information instead of random websites.  Because I have a limit, I am unique.  Being unique is good because you’re not copying everyone else.  I like being unique, but sometimes it just feels weird.  Sometimes I want to be like everyone else….I want to wear high heels, too!  Maybe my limit will be removed when I am sixteen.